Assalamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu, I hope all of you are having a blessed Ramadan Ameen I need advice on a topic that has been on my mind for a very long time. I think I may be on the spectrum and this has been very hard on me, I keep thinking of it over and over again and have all the symptoms which match with people of this disorder. I am very depressed and don't know what to do. My Imaan is lower than ever, infact ever since Ramadan began, it went down to the point where I struggle to pray the five Salah now. I feel like I can't open up to anyone and think that I am doomed because Allah has removed Salah from me or something. Please note that I still go to school and external factors are also affecting my Imaan. For example, my kafir teachers do not allow me to wear the abaya and this grieves me a lot, especially since I go to a mixed school (classrooms are separated though) even though ma sha Allah I score great marks in tests and etc, there is an emptiness inside me. Teachers like me but my peers don't because I am rude to them even though I don't want to be. At this point it feels like I have no softness left in my heart because I fail to sympathize with others and struggle to speak about my feelings, I keep saying stuff I don't mean too. The constant mood swings are getting to me. Please bi idhnillah provide me with support on what i should do. I also have very bad anxiety which makes it close to impossible to be in public. In summary, I want to know if i will be held accountable for my actions if I actually end up having autism because I have no evil intentions whatsoever. My imaan is lower than ever and I don't know who to speak to it, I barely have friends and those that I do have I fear they will judge me for my condition, I know I may misdiagnose myself but I had a feeling that I have ASD and my parents hid it from me, that's why they act differently with me than my siblings :( Jazakumullahu khairan and may Allah accept our deeds this Ramadan.. Ameen

Assalamo Alaikum! Alhumdulillah, I am a muslim girl who loves her religion and a strong believer in ALLAH and His actions. I will not say that I am very religious because I have done sins, made mistakes all my life like any other human being would do however, I am someone who would recognise her flaws and do try to work on them. I try to say my prayers regularly and would try to avoid doing sins as much as possible. I used to have very thick and long beautiful hair, clear skin etc but in the past few years, I noticed extreme hair loss and extreme acne on my face. This change was rather a sudden thing, I consulted doctors but there is nothing to worry about or any health issue. My hair is so thinning that I feel I’m going bald and might never be able to recover. I am not married yet and I feel I have become so ugly that no one would want to marry me, even if someone does, they surely will not be able to live with a bald wife for long. I believe more in Allah than science or medicines, in research, it says that hair loss is permanent and irreversable. However, I didn’t believe in it and decided that I will seek Allah’s help as there is nothing impossible for Him. And so I did, I started praying more regularly, made duas and requested Allah to make my hair healthy and skin clear like before with the hope that Allah will help me. It’s been six months now and there is no change but feel my condition is not getting better but worse. I know that Allah doesn’t like when one loses hope in Him and I strongly believe that you should never lose hope in Allah because ultimately Allah does support His followers. However, considering my current situation, I hate to say but at some point, I cry and start to lose hope because I think that when a muslim makes duas and Allah doesn’t grant him, it means He has something better planned for him. But in my case, I am just asking Allah to make my hair normal as they used to be and not make me go bald then what better there could be for myself and for my hair if Allah is not granting my wish. I have started to feel helpless and I ask Allah that I haven’t wished for something that is bad or anything, living with baldness will make my life hell and I will not want to live anymore. Of course, I’m only human, a woman and I can only tolerate to a certain level. I feel too depressed becauss of thinking that I have only asked my hair back but Allah might never grant my wish because all I can see is progressive hair loss with no sign of healing. I know people might think that why is she depressed over such a small thing but trust me these things could cause extreme Mental Health issues and low self-esteem that a person could forget to smile or lose hope to breathe. The more heartbreaking thing for me is that I have seeked Allah’s help and had such strong belief that only Allah can help me but no one else. But I am just losing hope and feel so depressed. Can anyone please advise me what to do and how to connect more with Allah so He could help me and I don’t lose hope. Jazak Allah Khair for taking the time to read this and I would appreciate your kind response.

Assalam o Alaikum I`m here to tell my sins and ...... the problems I'm facing. I was in a haram relationship and my mom caught me last night talking to him this was my first time ... I was never like this I was a sweet, innocent girl. I want to repent of my sins. So my question is will my mother and Allah ever forgive me

I moved to a different country and I dont know their language I am learning it but they have English at school that's kind of the only class which I'm getting full marks/ good grades in I feel so depressed I miss my old home and my family and friends and my old school I hate life because of all of this I lost hope and nothing makes me happy I try to study but I break down everytime how can I ask allah for help?

I go to school and this girl she always bullies me.(non muslim country) And she hits me. I went to the principal about her but nothing was done because there is no proof and this makes me feel very agonized and sad because she always bullies me and never gets punished.I belive in Allah(swt) and I know her day will be here soon when Allah(swt) will make her feel the wrath of the actions she does.I have tried swearing back at her when she does but I decided to stop because I need victory from Allah(swt). (She is a non muslim) So please is there any dua, I can make so that she feels what I felt?

I suffer from depression, anxiety and OCD. A scholar told me to believe in tawakkul of Allah. Can you explain what that is and how does it relate to my mental health please?

Sometimes after having a wet dream for example, I just cannot bring myself to do ghusl. I feel incredibly guilty and I’m also scared of punishment, but I have depression and anxiety which just makes showering seem so difficult. I am not saying that it’s justified if I don’t do ghusl, but i struggle with it. It’s kind of become a fear for me to even fall asleep bc I’m scared I might have a wet dream. Am I a kaafir?

Assalam-O-Alaikum Wrwb, I am a young Muslim man and I have found out that I have been "repenting and then repeating." By this, I mean I have been committing sin (I am abhorred to admit that I have watched some innapropiate things online) and then seeking forgiveness from My Lord, then for a while I stop that sin, but eventually I repeat the same sin. Often times I find myself depressed and extremely sad that I don't have the willpower to stop doing that sin and to stop lust, and I often think that because of my sinning, none of my dua have been accepted. This has been going on for around a year or possibly more. I've been making the same dua for that long time, but I've been sinning at the same time. Can somebody please give some guidance and help. Please make dua for my guidance, mercy from Allah (SWT,) the ability to stop watching, and for my dua to get accpeted. Jazakallah Khair.

How do I know the difference between doubts and waswaas of shaytaan? In many Islamic websites, doubts and waswaas of shaytaan are two entirely different things. These websites say that Allah will forgive you if you have waswaas of shaytaan, but He will not forgive you for doubts. These websites also say that if you are suffering from waswaas, you are still a muslim. But if you are suffering from doubts, you are a kafir. Read what it says in this website: https://www.al-islam.org/qalbe-saleem-immaculate-conscience-ayatullah-sayyid-abdul-husayn-dastghaib-shirazi/fourth-disease So according to this website, if you have doubt in your heart, you are a kafir and you good deeds are useless. This is what bothers me the most. If you've read my previous posts, I said that I'm suffering from doubts. But most people are telling me that these are all waswaas of shaytaan and I should seek refuge of Allah. Now I'm scared. What if they really are doubts? That means I am a kafir. I don't want to be a kafir. If they really are doubts instead of waswaas, then what should I do? I read a lot about Islam but nothing is helping me.

Ok so here’s my story: I grew up in a non-practicing muslim household, my parents both believe in Islam but they don’t pray etc. I am a 16 year old girl and I only actually got to know what Islam really is a few months ago. I am currently praying fajr and maghrib as an Imam told me that I should do that in the beginning and he said to take it slow, but I’m really struggling with everything. Just doing that already seems a bit overwhelming to me as I have anxiety, depression, hypothyroidism and I’m recovering from 2 eating disorders so I’m at a horrible place mentally. I am just extremely tired and I could do nothing all day. The purification process is also something I'm struggling with as I already posted another question. I barely have any friends and no hobbies at all because I’m not even sure which hobbies are permissible but I absolutely hate sports. My grades at school are bad and I have no motivation to study. I don’t really know who to go to for advice because I live in a non muslim country and I only met the imam that I talked to once during holidays when I went to my home country. Edit: I couldnt get an appointment with my doctor early enough but it’s my 2nd day fasting ramadan and I’m in a lot of pain right now, my whole midsection hurts but I don’t know if I am allowed to break the fast. Advice?

I ended up having sex with my boyfriend who I plan on marrying, but did not plan on having sex with before marriage. Now that this has happened, I am extremely upset and ashamed of my act aswell. Will God forgive me and help me get rid of this depression? Also, I pray I don't get pregnant. I am extremely depressed with what I have done and I cannot even seek forgiveness for my act seems like the worst I could have done!! Also, I don’t want to get pregnant and I pray to God to protect me and save me from all this.

Assalamualaikum.A few days ago I came to know my term final result and since then I am in great depression.I just can't get the result and my failure out of my head.This sort of things happened with me a year before but I somehow managed myself not getting into the acuteness of it by communicating with my friends and cousins.But this time it's worsening with every passing day because I am under lockdown since past 2/3 months.i am not even able to catch up on a sound sleep for almost 4 days.Would you please suggest me anything any surah or Hadith or anything to get rid of my current condition?

A precursor to say that I already struggle with my relationship with religion. I am also a mental health champion. I have suffered from thoughts about not being alive since 8. I am now 30. Please note I have tried to seek refuge in God but this has not been successful. This Ramadan 2020 I have even been struggling with my fast. I am not interested in doing it. Yet, I am doing it without having the nerve to intentionally break it. Hence, I believe it to be related to my mental well being. I am here for information and not advice. Thanks in advance.

This is going to be a bit long so please, bear with me. I am a 21 year old university student. I was born and raised a muslim. I have visited Saudi Arabia and performed Umrah many times and Hajj twice. I have always been proud to be a muslim. My Imaan has always been strong. Whenever I had doubts about Islam, it was easy for me to believe that they are just whispers of shaytaan. It was easy for me to ignore them. But that was until a few months ago. A few months ago, I read something online about Muhammad (s.a.w.) which had disastrous effects on my Imaan. I'm not gonna say what I read because it might affect the Imaan of other muslims reading this. But after I read it, I started asking myself "What if I'm following the wrong religion? What if Islam is not the truth?" I prayed to Allah everyday to make these thoughts go away. But Allah wasn't answering. I couldn't ignore these thoughts as waswas from shaytaan. For the first time in my life, I started suffering from depression. I wanted to end my life but I was too scared to do that because of what Islam teaches about suicide. I decided to talk to my parents about this issue. They told me:"Do not look for proof or reasoning for any religion. If there existed a reason/proof for any religion, everyone in the world would be following that religion. Instead, you should follow Islam blindly and assume that all doubts are whispers of shaytaan. You just have to take a leap of faith and "believe without reasoning"". I also talked to my younger brother about this issue and he gave me the exact same answer. At first I thought that advice was absurd. How can anyone simply "believe without reasoning"? I didn't follow their advice. I decided to keep looking for reasons to believe Islam is the truth. At first, I found a good reason to follow Islam. So I went with it. And I started to feel a lot better. But after a few weeks, I could no longer believe in that reason. In other words, I found a reason NOT to believe in that reason. So the doubts started to come back. The depression came back. I started crying to my parents again and they gave me the same reply as before: "Believe without reason. All doubts are whispers of shaytaan" A few days later, I found another reason to believe in Islam. And it was going quite well for a couple of days. But once again, I started to have doubts about those reasons as well. Once again, I started crying to my parents and once again, they gave me the same advice: "Believe without reason" So what did I do after that? I gave up. I finally took my parents' advice. Why? Because they were right. If I ever find a reason to follow a particular religion, then eventually, I will come across something that will give me doubts about that reason. Since I was born and raised muslim, I still had a little bit of Imaan left inside of me. So with that little bit of Imaan, I proclaimed the Shahadah again. For a couple of weeks, I was feeling a lot better. Everytime I had doubts, I just told myself "These are whispers of shaytaan". But suddenly, I remembered something. I remembered that if someone says Shahadah, he/she must do it with certainty. And only Allah knows what's in your heart. So I thought to myself: "Since some of the doubts were still there, I didn't recite Shahadah with a pure heart. But with the little bit of Imaan I had left inside of me, I did the best I could. So did Allah accept my Shahadah?" So brothers and sisters, I'm not asking you to help me believe in Islam because any reason you find can and will be refuted by someone. I want to follow Islam blindly. **But my question to you is: Did Allah accept my Shahadah?** Despite all my doubts, if I tell myself "I will follow Islam no matter what. All doubts are "whispers of Shaytaan" it just means that my heart is impure. My heart doesn't entirely believe in Islam but there is still a little bit of Imaan left inside of me. I don't care about other religions. This is the religion I want to believe. But would my Shahadah be accepted? I still pray 5 times a day but I'm afraid Allah is not accepting my Salah because I said Shahadah with an impure heart. I keep thinking "What if the doubts in my mind are not waswaas of shaytaan? What if it's all me?"

If one has repented and wants to be become a more practising Muslim but points below get in the way, how do they deal with them from an Islamic prospective? - If one is prevented from praying while at work. - Keeps on remembering sins committed in the past and feeling guilty because of them. - Surrounded by a bad environment related to their life and habits before repenting. Feeling lonely with no one to care for and support.

In recent years I have been through difficult times and had major emotional traumas. I noticed after that I no more find joy in *Salat* and *zikr*. I also no more read Quran in a daily basis as I was doing before. I'm taking some medications to fight the depression and psychiatric traumas But the treatment is not working well. I was doing well in my Iman and religious practice few years ago but recently I find myself struggling and fear I'm committing sins by being all the time mind absent and not feeling any joys or peace while praying or reading Qur'an. I also developed a serious faith crisis similar to that experienced by Imam Al Ghazali. I'm not a giant thinker and philosopher like him but I feel I'm going through same faith crisis he experienced. I don't have the Intellectual capabilities of Imam Ghazali to overcome this crisis. Are there any practical advice you can advise me to revert this dreadful feeling and state of mind?