I believe I may have commited blasphemy as purposely and consciously entertaing blasphemous thought and going on to lengths to ponder further on it but I immediately repented and asked forgiveness from Allah Subhanatallah Though it was intentional and deliberate but I was not able to think properly at the moment it was like i was frozen and just furthering this thought. It was like I was in control and, at the same time I had no control over it. Its hard for me to explain it but it felt like I knew it ot was wrong disgusting and vile and blasphemous but i was not able to control myself to stop thinking about it like I was actively thinking more about it like generating more scenarios in my mind.It did not felt subconscious but it seemed very apparent that I wanted to think about it but then i quickly snapped out of it and in my heart and also my intention was never to commit a blasphemy but i kept on intentionally and deliberately thinking about it.

My parents don’t really like Islam that much and I’ve tried to tell them that I am Muslim, but they simply don’t understand and when I give them reasons why I am a Muslim. They shrug it off and it seems like they really want me out of Islam and so out of the fear That both they won’t accept me and that they will spread wiswas into my head, causing kufr, I lie to them. is this kufr please respond quickly. If I did commit kufr Do I need to retake my shahada?

During salah, I want to make it good but I fear ostentation because it’s minor shirk so everytime i pray my heart hurts because I’m afraid to do shirk. What if I do ostentation accidentally? Will I be judged for it? How do I know I committed it? My heart hurts a lot from fearing this, how can I make my reciting good and avoid ostentation then?

Salam Aleikum my brothers and sister I wanna ask when a evil thought is coming to my head, is that shirk? Not too long ago, a voice said in my head **“I trust the Shaytan”**, I immediately panicked and now I don’t know, if it’s shirk. I’m so scared of it and I can’t get it out, of my head. These evil thoughts come a lot, I face these voices and bad thoughts about Allah Swt every single day. I’m panicking every single day because of these thoughts and I always fear if it’s my own fault. Even when I am trying to worship Allah Swt they are still in my head. I hope you guys can help.

I’ve watched videos and videos of Islamic motivational videos talking about how merciful Allah is to the sinner. But the thing is, it’s made me feel really guilty and vulnerable. Because I’ve began to think that it’s okay for me to sin because I know Allah will forgive me, and it’s made me lose the fear of Allah I need as a believer. To put it in different words, I feel like I’m taking advantage of Allah’s mercy. - How can I get this fear of Allah back? - How can I change my mentality to not sin as shamelessly? - Would Allah stop forgiving me because of this? **Note:** I still cry and feel remorse when I repent.
**Note:** I don’t shamelessly go around sinning, I still try my best to be a good Muslim and refrain from what’s been told to be haram.

Salaam aleikum. Fear in this world produces suffering and pain and it poisons you both spiritually and physically (science has shown the bad effects of stress and anxiety on human body) because it is normal that when you fear something, you are in anxiety about the bad things that might happen, your heart may beat stronger, you feel less pleasure from the things around you. My Question is: Does the fear towards god produce all the above mentioned effects in the beginning like all other fears do, and latter as a result of refraining from sins and doing larg quantities of good deeds(as a result of this fear) it produces good feelings of love for Allah, and many other good feelings but ? Is it a fear that unlike other fears that cause suffering to the body, it is a fear that produces only pleasure every time it is present in the body? Is it normal to suffer a heart attach out of fear from Allah? Is it normal to suffer anxiety disorder out of fear from Allah?

Al Salam Alaykum Brothers. I am a recent revert and I confidently believe that I am the target of several jinn both within me and around me. I have been trying to focus more during salah by focusing on the meaning of my words and praying slowly. Today I attempted to focus on a visualization of Allah's direction as to feel closer to Allah and commit my prayer to him. I first focused up in the sky while visualizing myself up there as well as to mentally feel my body close to Allah. Then I remembered, while I was in sujood, that we are infront of Allah when praying so I attempted to focus infront. That was when I was met with an incredibly strong fear in my chest. It was the "afraid of being alone in a dark room" fear, or the "can't move in bed because of sleep paralysis" fear. I immediately stopped focusing in that direction and finished my Salah. Brothers, can anyone please help explain to me what this fear was? Was I tapping into a strong jinn that was infront of me at the time (Side note, there was a mirror in front of me that was facing, not directly towards me, but to the side) or was I focusing on Allah's energy, causing the jinn inside me to create this reaction?

As we should neither be too afraid of Allah that we lose hope in Allah nor we should be in too much love with Allah that we forget the boundaries (means that we start crossing the boundaries set by Allah by thinking Allah will forgive). Then, how to keep balance between love of Allah and fear of Allah ?

I always believed that Allah is one. I never thought that I would start doubting the oneness of Allah. Recently, I started having these sort of thoughts (auzubillah): What if Isa was part of god before he was born, then he lost all divinity and became a human prophet (which explains why he would pray to god sometimes), and then, after his resurrection he rose into the heavens and became part of god again? I know it sounds absurd. But no matter how hard I try, I can't get it out of my head. I haven't been praying salah in a while since I'm too scared to pray salah now. If I pray salah with these sort of things in my mind, it will be like I'm praying to Isa.....and we all know that's shirk. Before I pray salah, I always have to clear my mind and tell myself "There is no god but Allah. There is not god but Allah. Isa was just a prophet." But this doesn't always work. My mind starts thinking about that haram thing again. How can I possibly prove it to myself that Allah does not have any parts? How can I possibly prove it to myself that Isa is not part of god? It's impossible. My only option is blind faith, but everyone says blind faith is not accepted by Allah. If belief in Allah is fitra, then I should be allowed to have blind faith in Allah.