Basically I trained my brain to be dependend on porn over the last 10 years(im 21). Is like a crack addiction but I have infinite crack at 3 seconds away from me,on my phone and laptop. I tried to install filters but it takes a few minutes to disable them,even these of them with password. Please help me, it ruins my mental integrity, it makes me feel dirty and filthy. It makes my mind weaker and it causes a lot of brainfog.Also I become obsessed with porn stars and porn scenes. I am not a budhist,neither a religious one per se,but I know that God exists. Also I've been meditating a lot in the last months,but I still fail to abstain,and after one relapse there comes 100 more because of the coolidge effect. I am very open minded to anything. Thank you in advanve, much peace and love.

I am not geographically close to this woman, nor do I ever talk to her, she's just my teenage obsession that lingers on my mind. I am too much attached to my perceptions about how she is, and because I cannot be near to her geography nor can I talk to her because of a past issue, I feel emptiness inside me. I feel lonely and I crave presence. I satisfying this craving my visualisations and fantasies. How can I get rid of this from deep inside. I have gotten rid of this from conscious thinking, but deep inside it still exists. Currently I am practicing 32 Body part meditation, Vipassana and Anapana Meditation. Can you suggest any specific exercise that would help me with this particular issue?

What is the difference between the two or are they the same?

I meditate daily for 5- 10 minutes with Breathing meditation. So, far I have curbed my Porn addiction. But, finding it difficult to keep away from masturbation. I keep telling myself, that I am wasting my time, water and every potential. But still I find it hard to keep away from the compulsion. It may be because I read in a medical book, that masturbation was normal. But, every time after doing the deed; I'd feel guilty and depleted of energy. The compulsion is strongest whenever I go to have a wash. If it arises when I am alone, I can keep myself away - through by strenuous exercise or playing rock music on my piano. But, I re-lapse every time I go on to take my wash. Now, it's hardly like I could keep from washing myself. What is the best medicine that the greatest way would recommend me to do?

I am looking for connection between lust, hatred, and delusion, and craving. Craving is more fundamental than lust, hatred and delusion: it is the craving which leads to lust, hatred and delusion. But how ? My question is -- how does the craving lead to lust, hatred and delusion? --- - "craving" -- *taṇhā* - "lust, hatred and delusion" -- *lobha*, *dosa*, *moha*