I have committed arrogance against Allah. Now, my heart is empty

Assalamualaikum, What I'm about to say, I know it isn't nice to hear or anything. I am a born "Muslim". I never practiced Islam until before 2023 when I was 12-13. All was well, I felt connected to my lord and genuinely asked forgiveness for my sins. I started to slowly put on the hijab and you know, I just felt connected with my religion. Then in 2024, we moved to another city and I had stopped praying. I started commiting those sins again for that whole year. I would pray only some months when I really felt that Iman boost. Now in 2025, I promised myself to get back to my Deen. I started praying again from February and even made some goals I wanted to achieve this Ramadan. During this, I would get a lot of doubts about Islam and you know my heart felt heavy at some rules, but I concluded it's the words of Allah and I shouldn't question it. Now in Ramadan, these doubts only increased and before long, I started having negative thoughts about Allah. I questioned my faith so much and just 3-4 days ago, I have started to become arrogant to Allah (Astagfirullah) and my heart feels heavy whenever someone praises him. I know this is INCREDIBLY wrong, but this feeling isn't going away. Since when did I feel like this about Allah? NOW, I don't like that Allah calls us his servants (ASTAGFIRULLAH). I tell myself I have to be obedient and I do still pray daily so I can be an obedient servant of Allah. But idk man, my heart has now become empty and I am (ASTAGFIRULLAH) doubting Allah's existence even though there are signs Infront of me. I keep thinking of that verse, "Indeed, Allah guides whom he wills and he sends astray whom he wills." I believe I have become astray. WAY TOO FAR FROM MY RELIGION. I am aware this arrogance takes me out of the fold of Islam and so I repeat the shahada and ask Allah to take away this disgusting arrogance. I try to remember my humble origins but nothing is of help. Today, I felt like I couldn't feel Allah's presence in that way, you know. I cannot focus on anything and my heart feels empty, lost and unaffected in some way. Please, Please tell me I can still be redeemed. I don't want Allah to abandon me and nor do I want this disgusting arrogance.