If i am gay should i have to convert my sexual orientation to save myself from the Azaab of Allah?

I have been fighting with myself for so long to find this question,if i am gay so should i have to change myself cause i have tried a lot to convince myself to have a straight relationship with girl but i can't help it. I need guidance please help me. It's my first time that I'm confronting this just for the answer because i have heard that homosexuality is a sin in islam. if it is sin then how would i fullfil my desires cause I can't do that with a woman.