What are some free islamic counselling websites?

Recently I have undergone severe hardships and trials , and now I am feeling depressed and suicidal. I know I am not supposed to kill myself because its a great sin. I feel depressed, deeply embarrassed, worthless, sad and I feel like I shouldn't have existed. I know this isn't a counselling website, I am looking for one but I can't find one. I am in desperate need of consolation and advice. I visited some online counselling websites but all of them involve payments which I am afraid I can't do because I am a child. I can't go and visit a physical counselor due to the covid situation in my country. I don't wont to ask my parents or (commit a sin) by without permission using their bank account to pay for online counselling. I feel like I am stuck in a cage with no door(solution) out to my problems. Hence I humbly ask whether my dear Brothers and sisters can help me in this regard to find a FREE counselling website. Its better if its an Islamic one but a non Islamic one is also ok but it should be free. Jazakallahu Khair