I have grown up watching bad marriages and financial crisises. I can't remember the last time i was happy. So in order to achieve salvation, I turned my face towards religion. I am not going to deny that i only did it so that Allah would listen to me. And....i prayed and prayed and did almost everything a good muslim is supposed to....wholeheartedly...hoping that Allah will help me and something good will happen to me. But it didn't. I have watched my parents being 'good muslims' throughout their lives and nothing good ever happens to them. My mother works really hard to provide for our family and she is a nice person but she ended up in a bad marriage with all kinds of miseries as gift and it has been the same for decades whereas I see other women just sitting at home, doing nothing other than being spendthrift, stubborn, quarrelsome and gossip-y and they get all the things in life even if they don't pray? Isn't it just unfair? So...after years of enduring everything and praying and getting nothing but disappointment, i turned away from Islam thinking that Allah doesn't listen. And i feel lost right now. I don't want to go back to the faith as i don't have it in me anymore to go through any mofe disappointments. So, brothers and sisters out there, tell me, what should I do now? (PS...i am familiar with the Hadith about our duas getting recieved in any of the three ways. It just seems like Allah is hell bent on the fact that mine always go the last two ways. It never goes the first way.)
Asked by nayala
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Nov 19, 2015, 05:10 PM
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