I've been practising insight meditation daily for over a decade now and attended a silent retreat usually every year except during covid. I do feel that I have changed significantly. I am a lot more aware from moment to moment of the arising and passing of phenomena and I have recognised that this phenomena and the knowing of it is all there really is. There is no fundamental 'me'. Just a knowing of what is arising.
So anyway I feel I have become a lot more sensitive and find people very hard to tolerate for very long. The trashing of the environment, the mass slaughter of animals to satisfy people's gluttony, the greed, hatred and delusion of leaders intent on wrecking the planet for their own benefit etc etc. I'm a recluse most of the time as I just don't like the toxic energy out there at this point in time. My question is about the arising of ill will. I feel disgust and hatred of people a lot. How do I work with this hindrance and afflictive emotions. I don't want to wallow in them as I know they are not skillful. Do I need to be proactive in some way and uproot them? If so how? Or do I just see them as more phenomena arising and passing?
Asked by Laniakea
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Apr 21, 2025, 04:13 AM
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