How to deal with insults?

As I am going deep into my meditations of Vipassana and Zazen I am also going deep in my subconscious mind. Some long-forgotten painful memories of insult surface up. As I look now with a different vantage point I understand that my own Karma, my own Ego, and my own behavior was also responsible for me getting insulted. So as the memories surface I say '**forgiveness and loving-kindness**', also I try to watch the painful memories without attachment and without the anger, **but this is all on the surface level or at the level of mind. Deep within I am hurt and I want to move away from them and go deep in meditation.** I want to ask how to deal with memories of past insulting behavior by others towards me?