Sexuality and how to get off zina

Assalamu Aleykum. Im girl who was born as Muslim and growing up I started hating men. I have several reasons. Maybe it's be of my father (hes good dad, im proud of him as my father but not good husband) also growing up I get too many sexual harassments from men who even have wife. I always wear long skirts or dresses and I have not worn tight clothes in my life but I still get it. Thats why I got kinda disgusted by man. The thing is Im trying my best to like them bc I have to be straight ( my sexuality) so that means at the end of the day I have to marry man. But the thing is after that incidents I started liking girls and even I have lesbian friend. Ive heard too many times that same-sex love is forbidden. But if U look up Quran there is no forbidden for women bc its not mentioned in Quran but for men its Mentioned, right? So that means I can love a girl?? If not why woman and woman can birth a baby (u can ask doctors if u dont believe me or even check google i guess) but im confused