What do I do when i overcame this world by not even trying but then it left me

In 2008 I was in a near accident were I was inspired to go to a book store and ask the employee to pick me out an inspiring book. I was very pleased as I began to read and shortly I began to feel light and vibrations enter my body. I began to give my things away and buy people things,thus it felt like I was in a state of bliss. There was no judging no trying to achieve anything. Now I was a happy person before but this felt holy . I began to walk the streets and ask if I could pray for/with them. Then an inner voice told me to do things like one instance I was told to follow the sun and I'd know where to go. Well it was a church and I began to cry and went into the church were a man was sitting. I put my hand on his knee and he startled and said this man is aa saint. It scared me. I wasn't eating and placed in a hospital. I'm forced to take medicine I hate and am miserable. What now....I can't go back in time,plus I remember praying to take on others pain. Plz help.so much more happened as well