Procrastination of cases requiring concentration

Greetings to all respected forum participants! Throughout many years, starting from school, I've noticed that compared to my peers, colleagues, classmates, etc., I often ended up being the least productive. I could spend a lot of time and effort on a task (especially creative ones - simple calculation or rewriting tasks were easy and quick, where I didn't need to concentrate heavily), which others completed faster and more easily. Meanwhile, my peers would manage to do something else in their free time or simply feel less exhausted, whereas I would spend extensive time and energy. Recently, I've realized that I'm a perfectionist. I spend a lot of time and effort to prepare and present a perfect result that I will achieve on the first try. Moreover, I have a deep-rooted fear of failure that originated in childhood. So if I need to do something responsible and present it to others, I'll spend a lot of time alone to be 100% confident in my abilities. From all of this stems my primary problem, which people have pointed out since childhood - distraction. For three months, I've tried to incorporate meditation into my daily life as a habit. I managed to create daily training routines at work and home when they're tied to a schedule, time, or place, but meditation is consistently avoided by me. I even set myself a limit of 5 minutes of meditation. Even the prospect of 5 minutes of meditation often feels like torture, especially after a hard workday. So with mild fatigue, I always found excuses for why I shouldn't meditate today. Procrastinating meditation is just the tip of the iceberg. Unfortunately, because of this, I'm low-productivity at work, do little in my hobby and personal development, and very often try to avoid concentration. At the same time, I don't have a strong phone addiction. I don't watch TikTok for hours, can sit at home in silence for hours and calmly read a book. But the moment I want to read a book, I'll postpone it because I'll be afraid to concentrate and spend time reading just one book. Friends, have any of you encountered this? What solutions do you see from a Buddhist perspective?