hard breath supression

I have been practicing vipassana and noticed I was always controling my breath to some degree and this allowed me to achieve near perfectly continuous awareness. The problem is that this isnt right practice because of the suppressesion and it holds back mindlfullness from developing. I am trying my best to never control my breath at all, short breath then short long then long, hard is hard, etc... however I reached a place where my breath just remains hard is if I am automatically controlling it, when I try to focus on the sensations every in and out breath is so present that it overtakes my awareness and causes me to lose focus. This creates anxiety in the mind because i am unable to focus on the sensations and i am not even doing anything, almost feels like punishment or torture. I have continue to stay equanimous and remember that sensation or no sensation does not matter, its about accepting the reality as it is. I hope to find some insight sooner or later about this. As of now I feel a bit stuck in anapana, i wonder if someone went throughsomwthing like this? Will my breath settle?